If I were a boy..

If I were a boy, my name would've been LOVELITO. Yuck!!!!! I would rather be called any other common names like Michael or Joshua. I would look decent but not too decent, since I'll grow my hair long. I wanna look like a rock star without appearing dirty or rugged. Being a guy would make me more confident. I would be active in sports, particularly in basketball, and dances. I would be an engineer. I wouldn't be too friendly or too sweet to any girl because I wouldn't want to give them the wrong impression. In relationships, I would be a man of my word. I would be married at a young age because I want to spend more time with my family especially my kids. We'll hang out when they are old enough. We could go biking, mountain climbing etc. It would always be a family activity except for boys' night or if my wife doesn't want to go. Needless to say, I would only have one wife. If our marriage doesn't work or last long, it would be the wife's fault. Either she cheated or died! ..because I would never cheat on my wife.

It's hard to be a boy. You should be dependable and responsible because people rely on you. I'm glad I'm a girl and thankful being one.

If you were God, what would you have created first?

If I were God, I would make sure that everybody knows there is only one God – Me. I am humble. I wouldn’t want to take much of your time. Worship me if you must. But as long as you know me and your thankful for the life I gave you that would be fine. You don’t need to offer your life for me. After all, I am all-powerful. Just live your life to the fullest. But bear in mind there are limits to your free will. That is why if I were God I would first create light. I want to divide light from darkness. Light would still be called “day” and darkness would still be called “night”. Somehow, light represents the good. In contrary, darkness represents the bad. So while you experience your free will, you would always choose to do good things or at least that which wouldn’t harm other people. We need light to guide us.

The sun, the moon and the stars are mediums of light. Imagine your life without having to experience these things. The sun wakes you up every morning and brightens your day. The moon gives light to the dark paths during the night. And the stars which continuously shine and twinkle for you every time you look up. They also give hope to those who wish.

You can’t really plan out in the dark. If you create something, you need to see it. You can’t appreciate your creation if you don’t see it. How could I have possibly recognized the beauty of everything I have created without the light?

I choose to create light first so that all creatures can appreciate the beauty of the earth. All the colors and all the things found in it. Like the rainbows, the sky and even the buildings.

After everything was created and the first man walked the earth, I would remove the concept of religion. It only creates conflicts about their ideas and beliefs. Eventually, it would lead to war. War kills not just humans but also the earth. It would destroy my creation. I would also remove the concept of deities. That way humans could live their lives without the feeling of being watched by a greater force. It would allow them to express themselves freely.

Today, September 10, 2009, midnight. (Philippine time)

Another day at work but I’m not sleepy. I don’t know why. From the time I got out of our boardinghouse, I felt light. It was like everything was okay. But it bothers me and here’s why;

° Whenever I leave our boarding house in time for work, I’m always tired. Its either I took a nap before actually going to work or I’m just so tired.
° Being in the workplace wears me out. Excluding the fact that well, the workplace is not health-friendly for having poor ventilation etc., everybody is busy-tired. So who am I to object?


Maybe I just didn’t expect this. Maybe this just isn’t for me and I know that, even before ‘this’ started, I know that. Still, I’m thankful for these guys. I’ve learned so much from them; the good and the bed. Did I just type in bed? Well, what I’m trying to say is the good and the bad. I’ve gotten to know different types of persona. At least this helps me in a theory I’ve been working on which I will post when the time is right; when it’s done. (hehe)

I am thankful for the boss. He always has a lot to say about stuff but they actually seem sensible. But if I may suggest, try not to talk down on your listener because that’s the time they establish their fear in you. You’re not always right so try to hear their side. When I say hear, wait for their say. Give them time to think about what they want to say - a time to establish their sentence because it’s not easy. Talking to you is not easy. But I appreciate the advices you’ve given to me and I do appreciate talking to you. Not just because I could practice talking to an American which really helps for the training I’m currently in, but also because I learn a lot from you. So, thank you.

I’m still not sleepy. Now, what should I be thinking about at this time? I really don’t know. But I do hope everything will turn out okay. Today.